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Day 30.  5 more days

I apparently didn’t plan my pants very well.  I bought a pair of black and grey camo pants from Cabellas on the Clarence rack for 8 USD.  A steal, right?

Yeah well, they’re soaking wet in the Galicia region.  We’re up in high altitude, it’s raining, damp, cold, foggy.  All things that make me wanna pee,  kind of weather.  And with soaking wet camo pants bought for $8 on clearance, I kind of just want to pee in them.

“Just let it go man.  Just let it go.”

~Dumb and Dumber.

We are waiting for a taxi.  We are princesses.  All other pilgrims are huddled by the fire trying to escape the suffering they signed up for.  Hana and I are actually escaping.  No try, only do.

We’re at a bar.  

Both of us don’t want to walk anymore in this weather especially since it’s a steep downhill.  Hell no thank you very much.

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We are now in Somos.  A quaint little village.  They’re all quaint, really.  Compared to home.

Hana is taking a nap.  She never takes naps.  I walked around town, taken a picture of the church and came back here to our hostel.  It has a bar downstairs.  We played chess with one of the locals earlier.  The bartender hooked us up with free drinks.

I make fun of Hana.  Every two minutes she asks the bartender for something and then tries to say “por favor”, only, she can’t say por favor.  She says “por pabor.”  

I imitate her in her sweet voice asking “Exuse me senior?  Por pabor? Senior?”

Oh god I love beer.  Words can’t explain.  I can drink my fill and still have energy to walk 15 miles the next day.  I drink a pint for lunch and I feel amazing after.  Goddammed beer.  Goddammed genetics is what it is.  My DNA needs it.  It has nothing to do with addiction.  It’s goddammed genetics.

It’s the weather that sets me back.  The cold damp weather.  Basically it’s rain mostly that I can’t stomach.  Because of my $8 pants.  No amount of beer can make me enjoy walking in cold wet weather with sopping wet pants.

I miss Hana when she’s sleeping.  Usually it’s the other way around.  We arrived here so early and she drank too much.  She told me the worst thing she ever done was make all her friends hate a girl she really liked because she wanted her all to herself.  

I guess this is a normal thing girls do.  I never did it personally because I want everyone to like who I like.  It makes life easier when everyone gets along with everyone else.  Especially when I like the person.  But that’s also one of the things that makes me naive.  I have no clue what’s going on half the time.   I love everybody, end of story.  I’m pretty boring and girls hate boring.

I want Hana to wake up.  She made me fully dependent on her and I think she planned for this to happen.   Her plan worked.  I want her here right now.  We’re never apart this long. 

Goddammed psychology.  I don’t get it.  Wake up Hana!  Damn you.  I’m always content with myself, always.  But now I got to deal with shit like this.  

I’m such a sucker, really.  A fucking sucker. My emotional maturity is at sub zero.

I just asked the bartender for another beer. It’s only 7pm and she might be in for the night.  The girl can sleep.  She’s exactly like me in all ways except add an extra 20% and that’s Hana.  20% worse than I am.  Now that’s pretty bad.  

I’m clean, but she’s 20% cleaner. I’m hungry, but she can eat 20% more food.  I’m generous but she spends more.

Hana is everything I am plus 20%.

I need to stop writing about her.  

I need to prepare for my life without Hana. It’s happening soon.

Why won’t she wake up?

I wanted a nap for the longest time, it should be me sleeping right now.  But I’m awake.  There’s no darts or pool to play.  Just me and my phone and about 7 Spanish speaking people.

The bartender told me that I need to turn the heat on “counter-clockwise”.  Hana is freezing upstairs.  I should go turn it on.  

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Day 29

I feel so much better!  I went to sleep at 9:30 and woke up at 8:30.  I feel amazing today.  No more crabbiness.  Poof, gone.  Just like that.

But that’s not the case for poor Hana.  My snoring kept her awake all night.  That’s why she has trouble getting up in the morning.

I didn’t always snore.  It just started happening within the last 4years or so.  I tried sleeping on my side but the bed digs into my hip and shoulder, I wake up in pain every hour.  Last night I said fuck it and slept however I wanted and it resulted in no sleep for Hana.

I feel guilty for feeling so good.

She’s finishing up getting ready.  I’m sitting outside vaping, about to go in for breakfast.  Our bags are all ready to be picked up by jacotrans.  It’s a good morning for me.  These are rare.

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We are sleeping side by side at a municipal albergue.  We had a few beers at the one bar in town and chatted up a fellow Korean and an Italian guy.  They’re traveling together just like me and Hana.

Today was O Cebreiro.  My favorite place and favorite hike on all the Camino.  Unfortunately it was cloudy today so we couldn’t see shit.  We were walking in a mist the whole way.  A weird surreal feel to it.  And it was freaking cold.  I had to buy a stupid Camino sweatshirt at a gift shop in O Cebreiro.  I’m wearing it now.  Super comfy.

We had to hike in the pitch dark tonight.  No stars or mooon.  Just blackness and the occasional barking dog charging after us.  It was pretty scary.  So damn cloudy.  The police wouldn’t even help us.

Okay, I should sleep.  My phone might be keeping people awake.

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Day 28 

I’m crabby today.  Just really exhausted.  I need a REALLY good nights sleep to feel like myself again.  I’m glad we’re staying in a private room at least.  

I want alone time is what it is.  I want to soak in a tub and then sleep. Most of all I want my bed, to hug my dog, watch Netflix and play Skyrim online.  It really doesn’t take much to make me happy, honestly.  Maybe some sushi take out, or I’ll try that new Vietnamese place that opened up.

It’s day 26 in my guide book.  Tomorrow is the long hike up to O Cebreiro.  The prettiest walk on all the Camino.

I’m so tired.  I at least have my audiobook.  As soon as I put my headphones on, I’m transported to a new place.  A secret place.  I have bedtime headphones with built in night shades that block out all light.  It’s pretty much my only private time.  I do love it but I fall asleep within minutes without having time to actually enjoy any of it.

Hana is organizing her shit.  I’m laying here playing on my phone.  It’s only 8:30pm but I want it to be lights out.  I’ll read a bit of the sci-Fy mag that I brought.  I still didn’t get through the first story.

Oh god I dont want to walk anymore.  Oh good lord.  God no more walk.  Shit.

First 2 hours of the walk is the hardest.  Once I get through the first 2 hours, I’m golden.  Hana promised to wake up at 8:30 and if she doesn’t, I’m using my rape whistle.

She just laughs at it but I’m serious.  She’s going to hate me.

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