I went to work at 10:00 today to see there were 16 missed calls. 16 unheard voicemails blinking on display.
“Mother fucking shit.”
I’m still having trouble going to work while I have no clients as I stated in my last post. I rationalized that my employee’s will never learn how to do anything on their own if I’m there spoon-feeding them.
I hired yet another therapist, Lara, bringing the total count to 13 massage therapists that work for me. I felt I had no choice. I was entering panic with the amount of clients we have. We’ve been so busy that I’m massaging again, only couple’s massages though. We sold 600 couples massages last month so I’ve got no choice but to help out.
I love this new therapist though. I want to be her best friend kind of love. She’s a 41 year old hippy chic with dreads, one of the coolest people I’ve ever met.
Tomorrow is Payday for all my new employee’s. It’s the moment of truth day. My employee’s made $2,136 and my independent contractors made $2,060 bringing the total to $4,196.
It’s January 11th and I have $18,600 in the bank. If I want to pay my debt off by April, I’ll need to pay $4,600 of it this month, but I’m too scared to do it.
I’d be in good shape if I didn’t pay off $21,000 of debt these past few months, I’d have $40,000 in the bank right now.
Anyway, I have to go back to work. Lara is coming in to learn how to do the signature couple’s massages at 2:00 and I need to be there anyway to answer phones, and I have a couples massage at 6:00.
Things are scary for me right now, I ain’t gonna lie. It’s unnerving not having to massage as much as before, it’s discombobulating. I feel uncalibrated. I’m not sure if I screwed myself or what. I need a few months to normalize, to get these signature couples redeemed and balance my books – to stop massaging for good and see what I’m left with at the end of each month. Too much is questionable right now.
According to my current fear level, I doubt I’ll make my cross-country trip this year.