HDMI HDMI! Do you know what this means? Neither do I!

Until that is, I found out.  I found out what HDMI is.  It’s a magical piece of equipment.  More magical than you nor I can ever imagine.  I’m sure it was given an honorable mention in the Book of Genesis.

HDMI allows you to connect your computer to your TV so whatever you’re watching on your laptop, can be seen on your big screen.

There’s a website where you can stream TV shows for free – any TV show.  Game of Thrones type of TV shows.

It’s now a few days later.  I’ve been watching Game of Thrones.

Here’s the website where you can stream TV shows:  www.stream-tv2.co

You don’t have to log in or create an account.  Do NOT give out your credit card number.  All you have to do is click and watch.  It works best on Firefox.  I use a Mac and the site never gave me a virus.

My Dad’s been pestering me these past few days;

Dad – “Are you still watching King of Thrones?”

Me – “Yep.”

Dad – “I think I left off when the eggs got stolen.”

Me – “That’s the end of season 2.  I’m not there yet.  I’m re-watching them.”

He wants to watch the show so badly but he’s horrible with computers and there’s no way he’d know how to work the stream-tv website.

So, I just bought seasons 1-4 on Amazon for 100 bucks.  You’re welcome Dad.

In other news, I still need to update my members system.  My new Game of Thrones addiction keeps my computer occupied and I need my computer in order to work on my new members system.  It’s an impossible task.  A dubious catch-22 of heart wrenching proportion.

Tomorrow I’m charging my member clients and with that money, I’m hoping to pay off $4000 of my debt.  Paying off my debt is of critical importance.

In the meantime, I’m slogging away at work.  Toiling away at washing sheets and massaging.

It’s like I’m always wanting to speed up time.

“With 40 more members I won’t need to wash sheets anymore.”

“With 80 more members I can hire one more therapist and retire from massage.”

“I can’t wait until they run my radio ad….”

“I can’t wait until December when I sell all those memberships….”

I’m in the habit of taking two steps forward and one step back.  I was making good money for a while so I invested in facials, rented the two rooms upstairs, got myself a receptionist, esthetician, new therapist, and next thing I know, I’m paying $2,200 in employee taxes each month.  I taken too many steps forward that time.

I didn’t just take a step back, I taken several and fell on my ass.

But it’s okay now.  At least, it should be okay now.  I haven’t dusted myself off yet.

There’s a website where you can watch movies that are still in the theater.  Totally illegal, I know, but it’s there.  I hardly ever use it, but today I did while I was getting ready for work.  I watched Pixels with Adam Sandler and had to stop it.  It was that bad.

My day today:

Woke up at 3:00 am, went upstairs for water and chocolate, came back down and went back to sleep.

Woke up at 12:00, answered emails and texts, ate eggs, took a shower, watched some of the movie Pixels and went to work at 2:30.

Massaged one client, did some cleaning, and then went to the laundromat at 5:30.

Washed and dried a ton of sheets, brought them all back to the office so my employee’s can fold them, then came back home.  I think I got home around 8.

I answered a few more emails, ate dinner, watched a show called iZombie and now here it is at 1 in the morning.

The bottoms of my feet are pulsating, why?

It’s so freaking hot in here.

My brother – “It’s hot in here, why don’t you open a window?”

Me – “Mom doesn’t want me to.”

Brother – “Why?”

Me – “Because people can get in.”

True story.

My mom doesn’t want me to open my bedroom window because I’m on the bottom floor where burglars and rapists can get me.”

Mom – “An open window is an open invitation.”

I just opened my window.  I have neck sweat!

But do you see how much of my day is devoted to massaging and washing sheets?  All of it!  Okay not all of it, but do you know how much of my day is filled with thoughts about my debt?  All of it!

I can’t think anymore.  It’s like I can’t see the beauty in anything anymore.  No inspiration, no nothing.  I just want to sleep all the time.  Sleep until the end of the month when they run my radio ad.

When I first discovered HDMI, I plugged it in and binge watched Game of Thrones while eating sushi take-out and you know what?  It was the best time of my life.  I loved every moment.

How can I be both so easily satisfied and so easily gloomy?  How can I have the capacity to slip into opposing forces seamlessly?  Effortlessly?

You know why?  Because I didn’t have any clients that day when I binged on Game of Thrones and sushi.  No sheets or clients to attend to.  It’s that simple.

When I let go, I really let go.  Which makes each time going back a little more heartbreaking than the last.  Which in turn makes each time letting go, a little more delusional in its grandeur.

I’m not making sense.  Have I ever?  Whatever, I need to sleep.

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2 responses to “HDMI HDMI! Do you know what this means? Neither do I!

  1. But you don’t get that great feeling of free at last where you can truly relax like on your game of thrones binge unless you’ve been working and earned it. You don’t! I don’t anyway. But I’m fairly sure that’s a universal thing. Pleasure/pain etc.

    • Yes, totally agree with you there. I thought about this too and can’t figure out any way around it. If every day was a Game of Thrones type of day, I’d get sick of it real fast. Life is too damn complicated.

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