I love science fiction. Particularly anything having to do with superpowers. I think that’s partly why I love spirituality.
I somehow linked spiritual wisdom with science fiction. It’s hard not to since science fiction isn’t about religion, it’s about unexplained mystical powers – powers that remain hidden to non-believers, or those not strong enough to handle it.
Powers that need activation.
Science fiction embodies spirituality. Anything is possible. May the force be with you.
And I love Bruce Lee.
I’m listening to The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle with one of my weekly clients. We get through one chapter per session. Instead of listening to relaxing background music, we enlighten ourselves. We are up to chapter 3.
It’s mostly stuff that I already figured out during my stink-hole office days of malcontent. Eckhart mentions that we should be a witness to our thoughts and not a contributor to them. We should view our thoughts from a distance, from our higher selves. Once we do that, we’ll be aware and conscious.
This actually happened to me for half a second while I was giving a massage 2 years ago. I was meditating, quietly watching my thoughts like the instructor said and wham! I was out of the box and witnessed my thought patterns plain as day.
It freaked me out and scared me some because for the first time I was able to see how blinded I am. I can NOT see outside my thought process, patterns, and belief system.
This only lasted for a second. And it’s one of those things that can’t be understood until you’ve experienced it for yourself.
And of course, Eckhart talks about the power of Now and how there are no problems, only situations that you need to address or not address. Nothing is ever a problem. Well, he worded it better than that anyhow.
But it got me thinking about my one second of self-realization (not to be confused with my two seconds of emptiness I’ve experienced around the same time).
The following few paragraphs is wisdom from Eckhart Tolle’s book, coupled with my own experience:
My thought patterns, the box I was trapped in, all had to do with time. My past and future events were inside this tiny little box along with my belief system trying to decipher everything. I was riddled with problems to mull over, all due to problems either in the past or in the future. And my pattern of thought was clearly visible. Almost palpable.
If you’re depressed, you’re most likely living in the past – avoiding or not wanting change. If you’re anxious or worried, you’re living in the future – not knowing what’s to come of something.
People identify with time. They identify themselves as anxious, depressed, worried, or hopeful. If they’re hopeful, hope is also a derivative of time. As long as you have hope, you will never be fully conscious. To be fully conscious means to live in the Now. Hope always involves the future.
I’m mostly happy-go-lucky. AKA, a complete idiot. Maybe that’s what it takes? (This is not according to Eckhart Tolle, but I’m only on chapter 3, so who know’s)
He says that by practicing living in the Now, you will attract exactly what you wish for. Your higher, more powerful self will be in charge instead of your monkey brain. You’ll have full control.
To fully grasp this, I had to visualize it. I visualized myself floating in space on a time line. I imagined the timeline getting shorter and shorter on both ends until it was just me floating in mid-space, just me with no timeline. No up or down, no calculable location. It’s like experiencing emptiness – the good kind – the one where all that exists are possibilities.
It’s science fiction at its finest! I mean, think about it!
If I can harness my ability at seeing myself (which I know is real because I did it for that one second), I can make shit happen.
But there’s a catch…..
When I was under the spell of ayahuasca, she also told me of the same catch that Eckhart mentioned in his book – that you have to let go of everything in order to gain everything. You must have no desire, no wants, no needs. You must trust.
(Trust takes courage, courage takes strength, strength equals choice.)
I asked Ayahuasca if meditation led to enlightenment and she said, “No it does not. What you desire will never happen. The more you desire something, the more you push it away.”
Monks meditate for enlightenment – they have a goal. Goals are time-based and not a member of the Now family. And sure enough, Eckhart also spoke of this. Using the same example of monks!
Gives me the chills….
But anywho, I’m fascinated by this shit. I’m fascinated because I’ve experienced these things. I’ve experienced them before even knowing what it was I was experiencing!
If I was out seeking these things, I never would have found them.
I want to write a science fiction book based on my findings of spirituality and everything ayahuasca taught me. Even if I’m the only one who reads it, it won’t matter. I’ve written 15 years worth of journals that nobody read, so why not a book?
I’m serious this time. I’m really going to do it. I gave up writing my last book because it failed to send my heart thumping and I was in no rush to finish it.
I need to read more science fiction novels. I need to discuss them with other people to get different idea’s and perspectives. I have to study and learn the language of novel writing and so, your dear sweet idiot Melanie joined a science fiction book club.
Yes she did!
I mean, I have time now so why the hell not? I also have time to write my book unlike last time when clients kept busting down my door wanting me to massage them. I have employee’s now beeyoches.
I think my main character will be a sushi chef. That’s perfect! To put together a sushi dish is like ikebana, the Japanese art of flower arrangement. A disciplined art form in which nature and humanity are brought together in an authentic, honest, minimalistic fashion.
Or… I can be the main character. Massaging people for a living, giving but never getting. I already know a lot about massaging people, so I should stick with that.
I have to stop writing tonight. I’ve done absolutely nothing today other than watch old X-Files shows on Netflix. My business is doing well, everything is caught up and stocked up. We’re the perfect amount of busy.
My biggest problem right now? I know problems don’t exist according to Eckhart Tolle, but my biggest problem is sleeping late. I sleep late and then I’m wide awake at 3AM. And when I do wake up early, I take naps which only keeps me awake until 3AM again.
I woke up early today and didn’t take my nap. I’m exhausted.
I’m thinking of joining a fitness club, like tennis or something. Volleyball if they have it. I need to do something other than drinking with my buddies, although I love that more than anything.
It’s so weird having time. The last time I had time, I was unemployed so it wasn’t fun. But this time is different. It’s like I have to keep checking back to make sure my business is okay – basically worrying over nothing, it’s a hard habit to break. My identity is linked with diligent work and chores. I’m like a farmer.
But everything is okay. I’ll even have that extra $3,000 in the bank to pay my employee’s with next month.
Rational Brain – “Everythings okay.”
Me – “Are you sure?”
Rational Brain – “Yes I’m sure.”
Me – “Let me just make sure again.”
Everything’s been done. I even paid my over-due parking ticket.
Me – “No, that can’t be right. Let me write my employee’s an email telling them how much I appreciate them.”
Rational Brain – “Please don’t.”
I just sent all my employee’s a long ramble about how much I appreciate them. They love reading my emails.
Eckhart Tolle says that our ego is linked with time, and all the ego does is struggle to keep alive. The ego thinks that if it dies, our bodies will die – Eckhart Tolle said this. The same exact epiphany I had while smoking pot. Since our ego’s identify with our problems, they become perpetual. One problem ends while another begins. We are the problem.
Eckhart worded it best by saying if a detective was trying to figure out a murder mystery while he himself was the murderer, it doesn’t make any sense to keep searching.
But that’s exactly what we do. We incessantly search for answers to our problems because we need validation. Validation that we matter, validation that we’re right and did nothing wrong. We do this to fill the void where our trust should be.
And by desiring such answers, being perpetually bombarded with either the past or the future – we’ll never disconnect and let go enough to actually see the truth of what really happened. We are caught in the matrix.
All problems are linked in time and time is linked with ego.
Side note: Ayahuasca told me that fear has a gravitational pull.
If time is a manifestation of ego, and ego is fear – than that explains the force of gravity and it’s effects on time. I know it’s a long shot and nearly incomprehensible to understand but it’s a neat idea. How our own fear created this physical world that we live in. We are the creators even down to it’s barebones, it’s blueprints. Manifested not out of love, but fear.
Eckhart: “Ego is fear and that means that all action, everything we do, is a derivative of this fear.”
I just recently started listening to this audiobook and holy crap, right? Same stuff I learned on my own. Same insights.
I witnessed this particular insight when I was under ayahuasca and realized that if the only evil is fear, and the whole world is orchestrated by fear, than that means this world is hell. An evil wasteland.
But at the same time, people are here by choice. We WANT to grow, we want to move past fear. And these foretold intentions walk us towards peace by confronting our fears head-on in a godless world void of answers with only illusionary faith and hope to guide us.
Once we awaken, we’ll know. Faith will become obsolete. And we’ll then identify with the world as being the loving, benevolent place that it truly is.
So yes, I’ll write my book. It’ll be similar to The Celestine Prophecy and most likely written just as poorly.
Shit yo, I gots to sleep.
How is it that Eckhart Tolle can write stuff like this, but when I do it I sound crazy?
Rational Brain – “If gravity is a derivative of our ego’s, than how do you explain the time before humans?”
All time happens simultaneously. Ha!
Rational Brain – “Whatever nerd, I’m going to bed.”