Last night before falling asleep, I hit enlightenment for 2 seconds. I was listening to my audiobook, and it was mentioning all the things that us human animals accomplished. They emphasized the fact that we are merely animals.
I zoned in on his words, focusing on them with the intent of understanding what we, as a human race, are capable of. And that’s when it happened. All that I wrote in my last post, I experienced. And it lasted for two seconds.
I experienced nothingness. It helped that I was falling to sleep at the time, but I wasn’t asleep yet.
The minute it hit, my head felt the sensation of falling and my heart dropped. I experienced it in my body as well as my mind.
Here is my train of thought that brought me into enlightenment:
My audiobook talked about how we landed on the moon and I thought, “why the moon? What made us want to go there? What gave us that idea?” I searched for a reason and meditated on these questions.
The answer came to me as a box. We are living inside a box and inside this box has all the idea’s, all the things we know to be true, and all that we’re interested in. We gain new idea’s from what’s already inside the box.
Meditating on this, I unconsciously tilled the soil for enlightenment to sprout. And then it happened.
Motivational speakers always talk about thinking outside the box. Creative artists create things using the box as their tool – what hasn’t been done yet, they set out to accomplish.
However, according to my enlightenment of last night, there IS no box. There is nothing. And that’s when my heart dropped and my head fell.
I experienced nothingness. There is no box. And with that understanding, I felt nothing but limitless potential. There was no up or down, east from west, no ultimate truth. There was no knowledge of anything inside the box because the box simply wasn’t there. I was completely empty.
And it lasted for 2 seconds. It went away as soon as I said to myself, “holy shit it’s happening! Am I sleeping?” Then I was back in my room. I started hearing my audiobook again because before I couldn’t hear anything.
I’m baffled by those who can sustain enlightenment. I can’t fathom any way this can be done. Ayahuasca told me this. She said the physical world will always bring us back.
My rational mind wants to chalk it up as being nothing but a mind trick. Like hypnosis. Or that maybe I really was asleep.
Anyway, I really need to start focusing on my book. I’ve been putting it off for days and days, using being “busy” as an excuse.
So, until we meet again blog……hang in there buddy.