Micky is on the phone talking over invincible air raids. I’m sitting here on my bench in the office.
I’m starting to get to that comfortable feeling again. You know what I’m talking about? It’s the feeling you get when you like your job, you’re making good money and you have absolutely zero things to stress about. I spent the majority of my life being in this feeling. This is where I belong – yes, really. It’s where I belong….
I talked before about me being like a coin; one side is all daffodils and daisy’s but on the other is prickly cacti. Why do I have to choose a side? I don’t want to choose to be happy or good anymore, I don’t want to choose to be anything. I’m just going to Be and see what happens. I’ll be the serrated edges of a quarter instead. Jagged and jaded but not fooling herself or nobody.
This is where I’m most content. This is where I feel like myself. The problem is, I lose all my professionalism and clients become friends I never met. But they seem to like this! At first people act all old and adult, but then they loosen up a bit and I see how they were in high school – they act young again.
I haven’t been doing anything lately accept work. Camping was the last time I did anything. It was fun, I had a blast. I smoked pot and drank myself 6 beers by the fire. I slept like a baby.
I signed myself up for birkram yoga. I start on Monday. Amy went for the first time last week and said it was hard. Very VERY hot. I’m going to tough it out. Doing hot yoga was part of my awakening – I saw how much our bodies are connected to our spirits, and was shown how important yoga is for keeping that connection healthy. I don’t know how or why, but yoga especially. And it should be easy dragging myself there every week if Amy’s counting on me to be there.
I have to start exercising for the Camino. I’m also going to start a running program in the morning before work which means that I have to go to bed early. No more late night video games or watching one show after the other on Netflix, and absolutely no – and I mean NO Billy O’s.
I’m going to try out the 5K Runner app on the iPhone. While you’re listening to music, a voice cuts in to tell you when to walk or run. It may sound silly, but for anyone who ever tried running, it’s a huge lifesaver to be told when it’s okay to slow down for a bit. It’s a pain having to time everything yourself.
And I quit smoking again. I love to smoke, I really do, but I don’t need it anymore. My stress is long gone and I’m relatively happy these days.
I’m just really tired. It might be from the leftover Chinese food I had for breakfast, or the turkey sandwich for lunch.
- How it all started (thenormalyogi.com)
- Create Your Yoga Sanctuary (silentsongstudios.wordpress.com)
- Yoga at Home: Be Your Own Best Teacher with a Home Practice! (athomeyoga.typepad.com)
- Yoga and Massage Therapy (massageenvy.com)
- Me + Yoga = True (evelinruns.wordpress.com)
- Yoga for Runners, Every Monday, 6-7pm (fitbitchrunningclub.wordpress.com)
- Better sex. Yet another benefit of yoga! (joyofspa.com)